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Dear diary
I've lost 13,4 since 16/6. I have 6,1 more on me since my weight 11 months ago..
I said goodbye to my dark lights ? But there are no lights at all.. I messed upped last night with the "hunger games" so I'm starting over from today 00:00 pm (12:00)..
Sofar already 314(1 pink fortimel extra and 1 big mint tablett).
I said bf that I wanted to see my friend in France, know who A is in PLL,redcoat and be "tunn som luft" thin as air. Bf i go anywhere in live(or out of)..
So.. i know #ceceisA and i know Sara is redcoat. I went to France and it all fd up.. It can never be repaired.
All I have left on my old list is the air part. Witch will take so much time, willpower,suffering,energy etc etc etc
But I want to I really do, even if I don't plan to die, I just wanna have "been there", done that. Kissed Ana,feel the Sibirian Winter, get high of the lack of nutricia etc etc.
I know it's a kind of stupid move, but I feel that I have to go down As road to ever get free. 020,10 kg Will it take to "get there"
"Even if it takes dying to get there so be it? At least I'll get there"
No. I'll get there, I'll recover(ish) and then I fight my other Problems and then I will LIVE, I will concur the world! I Will have The best life possible between 25-35 years of my age.
I will see to it' I will. I will be fine, I will be more than fine, I'll be okay, just not today.
If this "teacup" race even exists I will get it, I will love it and I will live for it among many good things.
It's never to late, tomorrow is always a new day if you make it.
It is still your life! Don't let them school you, don't let them fool you
XOXO