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I'm going to France.
Me MTAI Coco Chanel are going to Nice,Cannes, Monaco and St.tropez !

 

I'm leaving M in Sweden! 

I'm going on the 15th so I have to live trough about 16 days of Hell.
I'm so scared that I'd try something before though. OD,Cut,die or what ever but NO!

I have to stay alive, I have to go see my dearest darling A.C.L !


One day at the time and one hg at the time.. Still gaining since I can't go to the ladies, but I'm going to take laxatives now and if I'm not in total pain I'll workout tomorrow as well.

Today I ate.. Today I ate nothing! Just fluids and gum and try mouth little sucking thing..

I wont eat, I will survive by not eating. And I will save money by not eating aaand I will get into my xs and s size dresses tops and maybe even a bikini someday.. Who knows right!? 

I want to get as ready as I can, try drink water all though I hate tap water. Flush out and clean body,skin and mind.
I don't want to look sick anymore. I have to fix my nails, eyebrows lashes hair ect, I'll try ti do it the budget way..

I have some days to look at YouTube tutorials lol

I need a new bag Chanel, LV or Karl Lagerfeld

I need a fairy godmother to make me look perfect so me and my princess friend can go to Monaco and live happily ever after..