F:ed up day

Is this a joke or is this my real living nightmare?
I don't belong anywhere I have no one and I hate everyone

The treatment centre for ED and BPD etc. denied my application WTF!?
And im not sick enough (and I don't want to) be in the psycho ward..

My one and only little dark light was taken from me today! I can't explain in words what this means for my future and how this makes me feel. Today I was in town all alone for a few hr. I guess I should get use to that. It's just me and me now

I see the blood in your eyes, mirror on the wall here we are again.. You see the truth in my lies, you see there's nobody by my side


Today I ate way to many cal again.
1 or 2 Nutricia (don't remember..), 1 big Frappino Fruit, water, gum, juicewater(50), green tea



After 00:00 (now) 2 pears, 1 Nutricia(300) and gum while watching Paradise Hotel




Upp