Runaway Love
I could not take it no more!
I'm not over reacting or being "borderline" It is an awful place! They are soooooo mean, and they break me every day, every night and every morning.
I will report this unit, any day I got the energy/time!
They made my ed come back, and strong to.. BULIMIA BEATS!
But I wont let them break this relationship I've slowly started with A now! I wont go back to being an overweight cow and be Ms slave..
I wont! I cant! But parts of me wants to! (And I hate them for it!)
Yesterday I really wanted to binge, I had 1 fortimel during the day and bco my ed monster I asked for an other one, in the evening in the kitchen. They man (oh I hate you sooo much I feel sick.) said "no you can have one in the morning" while he took out all kinds of foods to himself.
Really!? Are you starving me now? Are u effing kidding? U can eat but I cant have a drink? You know (or at least should know) that I have an ed and that the doctor took away my meds to control it better and you're telling me I cant drink?
I got upset ofc and they gave me an injection o the drugs I want get off!
You wont give me a nutricia drink but a Niguel injection of drugs is fine!!!??? WTF!
After that I "stole" all the fruits and some marie kex and "binged" on that... I never purge none of my food anymore, its not working anymore!? I took some laxatives though. And today almost the same thing happened but worse so I left. I grabbed my LV bags, suitcases and left!
I'm happy to be "free" I can take me ed meds, I can take benzodiazepines as I want it(If I want it). I can watch series/movies 24/7 , not only after I had my Ipad in the charging room for a year.. I can shave, I can drink champagne and I can have a bra tralalalalaa
But ofc there's a downside to it all, but I don't have to tell you that cuz you already know what world I live in. In or out the hospital walls..
F'ck society!
