Been eating to much yesterday and today.. Afraid to weigh myself but I have to know!
Tomorrow bf I eat or drink I'll way myself.
Right now I'm at my granmothers house, about 1 h
away from the DBT Threatment Center I will be
staying at for the rest of the year(If god wants).
In less than 48 h I will be there in my room, it feels
so wierd.. It's like i don't wanna go at all, but i Really wanna go like NOW!
It's like I hate the place but I'm in love with it. It's like im excited but scared at the same time.
Who will be there, what kind of girls, are there
gonna be anorexics there? I'm I gonna be the
biggest girl in my Unit? Are the staff gonna push
ME to eat? Is my room nice? Will they make
alternative foods when meat is served? So many questions in my head i'm going crazy
I wanted to be at 50,00 or under like 47-49,9 actually
but now god knows i might be 55.00 or more ;(
FML!
XO
