Stab me, choke me, kill me

I feel anxiety
"The stomach pain is horrendous
The taste of dessert coming back
The look of disaster
stab me, choke me, kill me
The disapproval upon the faces
The miserable sounds in the background
The insecurity peaking out
save me, help me, rescue me
The choke before the gag
The spit before the rest
The death in my stomach
take me, be me, please
The blood in my gums
The ache in my throat
It's over   - I feel empty again "
 
 
I gained almost 5 kgs in less than a week.. Stab me! Choke me! Kill me!!!
4,5 or someting. It dosen't even matter It's no much! To much to take,to much to gain and to much to weigh..
 
I want  to leave this fattening place right now! But I know the truth; I have no self-control
 
 
Upp